Note the presence of a different kind of intelligence—the kind that does not run in circles or work against itself. It's off the plane of mental cognition and accesses the level of direct knowledge. This kind of intelligence knows something is true and then figures out how it works in practical terms. As you get a feeling for this experience, you'll shift your relationship to yourself, and could discover that you have access to something deeper, something that transcends the usual boundaries of what you think of as your mind. Your mind is indeed part of something larger. It's only the idea that it's not that prevents you from experiencing this directly. It's therefore essential that you do the one thing with your mind that is eminently possible for anyone who wants to do so: Keep it open. Then I suggest you observe the ways in which information comes in from modalities other than what you might normally consider to be thought. Actual creative thought is not bound by anything physical; it needs no grounding in experience or learned knowledge. It's a truly generative experience. Yet to get there, you need to think of yourself differently, which first means noticing your prior limits and being willing to go beyond them. Limits serve the purpose of creating a comfort zone—one that you no longer need, and that I doubt you want.