Isn't it time to get over the feeling that if you get close to someone, or allow yourself to connect to them deeply, that your life is going to run out of control? Imagine that the "out of control" factor is really an unknown. That's not what it literally is, it's just your equivalent of X. You could, under that scenario, revise the story: "If I connect to someone deeply, something of which I'm not sure may happen." That is another way of saying that if you make contact, something will change—and it will. Both people will change. That is what happens when humans interact: they learn from one another, influence one another, and often become a little (or a lot) like one another. I suggest you list the reasons you have to trust and not trust the situation; to trust and not trust yourself. From the look of the astrology, you're the person who is the most likely to have a profound or life-changing influence on someone you respect or admire, though you may not be up to believing how that's possible. Well, it is possible; making friends with a kitten is enough to have a life-changing influence on many people. This isn't something you have to try to do, plan on, or expect. The most helpful thing you can do is trust, which means not throwing your fear in front of your path as a stumbling block. Said another way, you can use your power for or against your own best interests.