If there is nothing holding you back, then what is holding you back? At this point, it's likely to be the feeling that you're not on solid or stable ground with yourself. So I would ask, can you get accustomed to the fact that the Earth is moving? Can you accept that as a fundamental truth of existence? (The Earth really is moving beneath you, literally and metaphorically.) Many factors in your astrology suggest that there is no certainty, and that nobody can hand it to you. Yet this also means that you are standing in a rare, and beautiful, opportunity to embrace the potential contained in an actual review of what you think, what you feel and what you value the most. In other words, questions are more valuable than answers, in part because they lead you to an open-ended place. If your phase of questioning is to end before you embark on your experiment, that's a little like buying a set of paints, putting them in the closet, and waiting for them to dry out before you make a painting. The uncertainty you feel, is an experience of your potential—as is any self-doubt, or anger at yourself, at your past, or, for that matter, anger at your parents. You seem to be pulled between the desire for total, radical independence at the same time you're aware that every aspect of your life contains subtle or overt interdependencies with the rest of existence. This is less of a paradox than it seems.