What can you do to place yourself onto some solid emotional ground? You have to live with the situation you're in, at least for a while; this is not one you can easily evade, run from, or redesign to suit your fancy. And why would you want to? There are so many ways you're benefiting, and you both understand and want the power of commitment. It would be healthy to account for the ways that you contribute to any emotional situation in your life. Indeed, I suggest you list yourself as a direct co-creator in any and all of your relationships. I know that there's a way they seem to be thrust at you. I know you don't understand how or why some things happen. However, taking a passive approach is only going to accentuate that feeling. The more you step up, the more you will feel like you're able to influence your various life situations. I am not suggesting that you try to take control. I am not suggesting (as you may be tempted to do) that tit-for-tat or "an eye for an eye" is an appropriate response, even when you're treated unfairly. I am saying claim your space, stand in your responsibility and be true to yourself and to those with whom you're journeying. That might include asking for what you need, expressing gratitude to those who have helped you, or having a dialog about how to improve circumstances for everyone.