It’s unlikely you’re leaving any stone unturned or taking any insecurity for granted. How could you, when your mind is working overtime attempting to figure out the source of what troubles you? The figuring may be part of the problem, however. It does not help that there are moments when you really do feel like you can calculate the nature of your emotional needs and odd hesitancies. That little taste of success is enough to keep you going in what amounts to the wrong direction (forward). Try orienting yourself in reverse: in time, in your assessment of what you want, and internally rather than externally. Consider the child you are rather than the adult you are forced to be. Consider what you do not say as being the most significant indicator of what you truly want to say. Look for your reflection in the fears and dysfunctional beliefs of others. Imagine what they are not saying, and you’ll have a clue what you are not saying. Then listen to yourself.
Taurus (April 19-May 20)
You may well be asking whether current developments amount to a union, or a separation. Let’s say they are both, and that one depends on the other. Many seeming opposites at the moment depend on each other, and what all the different factors have in common is encountering something, some situation, that feels much larger than yourself, perhaps more compelling than you’re accustomed to admitting, or even way over your head. The separating factor is about letting go of a past experience or model of yourself that you cannot bring into the new phase you’re entering. This transition has a lot to do with your parents; you are seeing, maybe for the first time, how vastly different you are from them. But also, however, the intellectual awareness of this difference matters not. What is happening is an energetic experience of being entirely different with every cell in your body, sloughing off so much weight and expectation, and emerging somewhere new with the ability to choose what you want, based on who you are.
Gemini (May 20-June 21)
You have better things to count than your pennies. Since you seem to be intent on counting, what I suggest you consider is yourself. You need to start in the past. I can tell you from working as an astrologer for more than a decade that most people have no clue, none at all, of the effect that their early family environment had on their psyche. We all need to stop being defensive about this, stop being afraid to piss off our parents, moreover, stop kissing their asses, and get honest about what was done to us as kids. For those of us who are parents, this will make you a better parent, which is not beside the point at the moment. While you’re doing your damage assessment, I suggest you also note the ways that what happened to you has helped you; we are never injured without being given some corresponding, often greater, reward. But understanding just what was going on in those early reaches of the past deserves your full attention at the moment, and much of that involves the value you were taught to put on yourself. This is a rare opportunity to reckon your accounts.
Cancer (June 21-July 22)
You have a right to change your mind. To do that, you have to know your mind, and for that, you need to find out what’s there. I trust that you’ll discover many things—ideas, beliefs, patterns of thought—that you don’t need, and once you identify them, you’re in an excellent position to let them go. I don’t propose you concern yourself with what is new, what you want to create, or what you are seeking, but rather with the process of identifying and releasing, in that order. In essence, you will be making room for what is new, and at the same time, learning to identify what is what, so that you have a basis for deciding whether you really want it; whether it’s useful; whether it helps or hinders you. Current aspects are providing you with the potential to reach an astonishing depth in this process, and to see and understand yourself in a way that is typically impossible for human beings. To do this effectively, you will need space and time, hopefully something more than evenings and weekends.