Without ever seeing each other they understood how they would never meet and it was agreed that this would be their secret. And each one would remain a fantasy; a creation and invention, a daydream of the other.
That was until everything started getting out of hand, and each one gradually got carried away, and what started as an innocent exploit, became rife with accusations, innuendos, brutal outbursts, and endless emotional upheavals. This was not part of the agreement.
They had assumed that lack of physical contact would prevent outrageous incidents and painful pronouncements. Instead, however, hours spent in prolonged fantasies, produced futile and frustrating desires to really have it out with each other.
It became clear that they could no longer keep this up without serious consequences. Therefore, secretly they decided to separate, though they had never met. But in truth, each one only fabricated new falsehoods, imagined new injuries, and created new circumstances for the other. And so it continues.
—Roberta Allen, from Up Is Up But So Is Down