Just the concept that something is or even that it may be valuable is enough to make it so. It works the same way in how we feel about ourselves. Consider the effects of the value you put on yourself. I don't mean your monetary value, though that will come up eventually; I mean whether you think you matter to others, or whether what you do and offer to the world makes a difference. You've had a way of thinking about this theme for a long time. You've tried to work out the equation a number of times before, with only limited success. It's as if you know your own value intuitively but cannot quite articulate it to yourself. Yet there's a vital piece to the puzzle: values are only valuable to the extent that we act on them. Once acted upon, there's greater tangibility to what is, in essence, an idea. The dividing line I see in your chart seems to involve making an actual decision about what you say is the most important to you, and then sizing up the effects based upon what happens. We do a lot of jabbering to ourselves about what is so important, though rarely put ourselves through this simple test. Well, it may not be so simple, and you may need to persevere through what seems like an inordinately long time to get your results, though it's only long in your perception. Assuming you keep at it, you may not have your answer until six months from now.
