It would help if you believe the information you're given, especially if you recognize that it's associated with your personal evolution. Your charts suggest you might not recognize as true something that is indeed true, even though you have evidence to support it. One hint is that you've figured this out before, and it didn't quite register. Now the pattern is easy to see. You don't need to make the same mistake again, especially if it involves a relationship and what you're learning and exploring there. You have by this time figured out that there is some internal issue that's preventing you from fully trusting this situation, or in truth, many others. It's as if you can see this scenario as it is only when you don't look directly at it. Now, however, a constellation is aligning that is allowing you to enter a direct dialog with this issue. One theme is whether you feel you can accurately express yourself. This in turn has a way of making you feel the only option is silence. But that's not really a viable route; not now, anyway. The more progressive way to go is to enter into a direct dialog with every taboo. Put the subject matter into words, whatever that takes. Strive for clarity day by day and please don't be deterred by the small effort it can take to get there.